I am in the midst of reading Pushed: The Painful Truth About Childbirth and Modern Maternity Care by Jennifer Block
It is a more difficult read than others in my recent book-wormish past, but a good read nonetheless. It is easily digestible, simply a 'hard read'... parts of the book make me upset, some makes me feel like throwing in the towel, still others give me insight and hope. It is a HARD read.
I believe that I am coming to a point in my career that many do in my field - become indifferent, become more impassioned, or quit. My heart says there is no way that I could quit, there is too much of a need in this country for maternal-fetal rights and evidence-based health care. Indifference is not an option - I cannot see how someone could stay in this business indifferent... those that do treat CB as a business and become no better than those that we are fighting so hard to reform.
I think it is simply overwhelming - a sense of this being to big for a change, to big for a real difference to be made. But then I remember... it's not about the big picture. But about the little picture: roughly 7lbs and 21 inches of picture to be exact...
And then I read another chapter.
I will get to a better post on the book itself, I promise - for right now, I just needed to vent a little bit... just enough of a purge to get me back on track.