I have been letting go of a lot lately...
My opinion on how important 4 walls are
My right to be home with the children and take care of the home
My perceptions on how my day in and day out would be
I have been letting go of a lot lately.
I now work 8-8, Monday through Friday, and most Saturdays for, at least, a short time of the day.
My husband, who has a brilliant business mind, is home with the children as, although he is over qualified for every position he applies for, he always seems to be passed up for the younger, childless hopeful, or the one who spent 1 extra year at University than he did, regardless of their work history.
I, no we, WE have been letting go of a lot lately... or secure income, a place, a space of our own... And we are joined by many people around the United States who have had a bad month, season, or year.
And I realize that we are all laboring women... working hard to make something new out of a laborious situation. To bring something fresh and slippery and delightful out of our every moment of every day.
In transition, we find ourselves wishing we could be done... that our carefully constructed paper houses of security could somehow manifest themselves again and it would all just go away... for a moment.
But we also know, some more primal and pouting part of us, that we can't just be done... not until we push through it... not until we let go.
And so, we let go.
We let go of our securities
Our roles and biased views on traditional families
And I pray, how I pray, that, at the end of this transition, we will hold something gloriously wiggly, wet, fresh, and new - something completely earth shattering and peaceful in the same breath - something that can tell our family that this has all been worth it.
A new life.